Our New Baby.....

Her name is Nicky (or should it be Nikki???)She is 3 months old and just so cute. My (late) son's (Christopher) dog, Lucy is the mother and Lucy is now my other son's (Ben) dog and she had 3 pups. I have one, Ben is keeping one and one was given to Ben's buddies mom. I think I have the cutest puppie of the bunch.

She sleeps with us on her own blanket with her little pillow just as cute as can be. I think she may be my only grandchild, as I think our kids don't seem to be in any panic to have any (real) kids. She is so easy to look after and so loving...quite different than our 3 cats. Did I mention that we live in a one bedroom apartment (a good sized one)with our little animal family??? It's not really crowded and everyone seems to get along (sorta).

I have other stuff that I am worrying about but I can't seem to bring myself to write it down...it has been a tough year for me, emotionally mostly with the loss of Christopher, not so much spiritually, that seems to be good. I am letting God use me as He feels best, it's just in my human way, I would like things different (which I think a lot of us can relate to).

Just one thing though and maybe someone can comment on this...I'm the leader of our Bible study and out of 10-12 people,myself and 2 others are the only ones coming prepared...it seems that the others just don't realize that Jesus is more important than (themselves) Survivor, sleeping, too busy (whats 10 minutes a day???) I get a little frustrated with some attitudes...My pastor says to 'just keep encouraging them' so that's what I do. Can anyone else relate to this ???...oh yeah, my pastor says try doing what he does (with the whole church) and seeing members just showing up but not really understanding what Christ has done for us and how little we do Him.

There's other stuff I could go on about, but I just can't bring myself to that right now...work, my friend in prison, marriage, our street ministry, on and on. You know , everyday day stuff. Well, enough for today, hopefully I will feel like writing more soon.